Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
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26 April 2025

NaPoWriMo 2025 (part VIII)

Days 26-30 of NaPoWriMo

Sonnet

In soft refrain, these syllables fall
From gasping mouths, and in between the pants
Of husky breath, whispered words will call
And urge the other in this sensuous dance.
Astride and unashamed, your body moves
To unheard music playing in our minds,
While in my chest, my beating heart approves
The grand legato of your limbs entwined.
With teeth and tongues and arching spine, and now
The bold staccato of your fingernails
Embedded in my flesh, I think I know
How symphonies your every sense enthral.
Here in the dark, the colours of our song
Illuminate the love that now has grown.


The Great Red Dragon

If only they knew of the hell we have become,
And all the varied sins that overrun.
Where here, that evil takes its faceless form,
His stance is wide, his muscled legs are strong.
Leathered wings about him are outspread,
And fire rings a halo on his head.
Though monstrous large, his agile tread is light,
He steps upon the crescent of the night.
In the clutches of his sinewed tail,
A lady lies prostrate; her face is pale,
Her hands are raised entreatingly in prayer,
All around her flows her golden hair.
The dragon is the essence of her fear,
His beauty and brutality is clear,
And though his darkness o'er the scene is flung,
The woman is still clothed with the sun. 


Love is a Sin

How can love be a sin?
That flutter in your stomach
When they walk into the room, and it's like
Sunrise
A soft, warm glow.

How can love be a sin?
The feeling of bravery
As you stand up, finally, and declare
"This is me"
And always has been.

How can love be a sin?
The slow, deliberate dedication
Of nurturing yourself, for every tomorrow.
Peeling oranges
And the tang of cheese.

How can love be a sin?
The comfortable satisfaction of knowing
That your family, by blood or bond,
Will fight
Beside you


Eclipse

I step quietly against the tide,
The hubbub of the waking world behind me,
And all around is blue and green.
The shadow of the moon wavers
On the ebb and flow, night within day.
Seaweed tendrils wrap around my ankles
And just for a moment, here in the sweet still calm
I surrender to the idea of eternity. 
But the moon shifts
And the clouds drift across the sky
And the waves grow cold against my skin.
The sharp cry of the gull is echoed
By a foghorn from a ship on the horizon.
I return to this waking world,
But try to hold within me
That moment 

13 December 2023

My love is the ocean

This feeling is too big.

I curl up under the blankets, a cup of tea in my hand, the thrum of rain on the window, and I try to calm the storm that flutters in my chest.

I can't begin to name this thing, this mass that unfurls its tendrils, creeping from my lungs to coil around my heart and stomach and up into my brain. Is it love? Is it obsession? Is it infatuation? All I know is the tv static mimics the tinnitus in my ears, and I so desperately want to drown out all the noise and focus, but the thing won't let me.

There are many things that draw out this feeling, and enigmatic cannibals falling helplessly in love shouldn't be one of them. I cannot begin to control where this desperation comes from, what drives the tingling of my fingers and the tears spilling from my eyes.

Special interest. Hyperfixation. My jumbled autistic brain reaching out for connections and finding that people carved into roses, blood on snow, and shy glances between psychopaths is just the thing to send my heart racing.

Is this a reflection of me? Do I long for love, and fear it, in the way a killer longs for blood on his hands and cold air in his lungs? Do I see my own broken, confused heart and allow it to fill with the love that they share? 

Or is it just the soaring strings and bright colours, the tender hands, and poetic speeches that grip me and hold me under. They could speak of anything, and I would listen, and take it as gospel, these beautiful, damaged men and their heart-breaking journey. 

Maybe all I'm really searching for is that feeling, that's too big. I don't want to contain it. I want my love to burst forth, spilling from the edges of my soul, and let all the people know that this is for them. This is for you. It has always been for you.

I step tentatively into this ocean of my love, trailing my fingers over waves of emotion. There are sandcastles on the shore of my mind, each one dedicated to a friend, a lover, and if the storm of my love grows, I will destroy you all. So I caress you, gently, an incoming tide, and you feel the cool touch, a promise of what could be. This feeling is too big for me to let out. So I settle for their love, their storm, that grows and rages, and breaks them upon the shore, and I dream of the day I will be brave enough for my own storm.